Trying to put it into words

Sorry for the delay here.  I was getting on a role of making a post every week but i got off of that just a little.  Hopefully i can get back into that routine.  


Since my last post we have played 4 games.  I still have not gotten to dress in any of the games.  Our current overall record is,  2-7-1.  So we are not having a successful season at all thus far.  I get discouraged at times, having not played a game yet thus far.  However, i was talking with the Lord last week after i found out i was not dressing for a game and i heard the Lord say to me Proverbs 3:5


⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
         And do not lean on your own understanding. 




When i read that i said, yes Lord i can do that.  However, that can seem hard at times, your flesh wants you to worry or try to have YOU figure it out but that is not what the Lord asks.  He says Trust in Him and DO NOT lean on your own understanding, no matter what you see.  Even as i write this i am encouraged by that scripture and i am thankful for the Lord reminding me of that truth.  


During this time when all i seem to be doing is practicing,  i need help from the Lord to continue to do everything as unto the Lord.  To practice with excellence, even if there is the thought that the coach might not play me even if i am practicing hard, i must continue to practice unto the Lord.  By the Grace of God i will continue to be the hardest working player on my team.  I so need His help and i am thankful for that, i think that that is a great thing, to know that i need Him.  


As i am writing this i am finding it difficult to find what to say.  In my walk with the Lord i believe it is so important just to be real.  Christians can many times be so fake and say things just because they know to say them.  I could run off a list of scriptures and say this or that but i feel somewhat discouraged right now.  I trust that the Lord will work this out for my good but i want to some action.  I want to hold the Lord to His word.  The Lord makes promises to His children in the bible and i will continue to hold Him to that Word.  Like Smith Wigglesworth once said,  "Lord you have promised it, now do it".  The promise that i have been meditating on today is,  "everything i put my hand to will prosper" ,  and "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".  These things must be true, God said it!  Even though my current hockey situation does not line up with that, i choose to take God's word over the voice of my situation and i know He will turn this around.  He will cause me to be the head and not the tail, He has promised that.  


By the Grace of God i will be the best defenseman SUNY Cortland has ever had!  


This week we have a home game tuesday (tomorrow) that i already know i am not playing in.  Then we have two games this weekend on the road.  We play friday night and saturday night.  I will update you all after this weekends games.  




I wanted to mention a couple of things that i am requesting, believing from the Lord: 


That the ability of God would flow through me by the grace of God while i am     playing - The Lord is the best hockey player ever, and He lives in me.


That the Lord would give my coach divine ideas and wisdom as to how to lead our team effectively






Also we only have 2 weeks left of classes and then we have finals week after that.  So the semester is winding down and i am excited about that!  Really looking forward to this semester being over.  I do want to finish very well though and i really need to do well on my last couple tests in my Anatomy class in order to do well in that class.  So i need help with that as well.  




Thank you all for taking the time to read.  I really appreciate it.  Thank you for your prayers as well.  I shall write again soon!! 



Just read this on Joseph Princes Facebook page: 

"Grace is God seeing you not in your perfections, but in the perfections of His Son & beckoning you to come boldly to Him to find help."  

Another week down and I am still Victorious!

Another week is down. We had games tuesday and friday this week. Tuesday we played Hobart College, they are a top ranked national team and we tied that game, although i feel like we should of won because we played very well. Friday we played number 1 ranked Oswego. They are a darn good team, i am always impressed with how they play and we lost that game. Now our overall record is 2-3-1

I still did not get to dress in either of the games this week. That makes 6 games this season where i have not dressed still. However, my hope is still in God. My mum gave me this scripture a couple weeks ago and said this is what she heard from the Lord that He is doing:

¹⁹The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds' feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]! - Hab 3:19 (amp)

And i was thinking about this scripture yesterday and i was like, "huh man the Lord is awesome because i really am making spiritual progress upon this place of suffering". It is not fun at all not getting to play, it stinks really. But man the Lord is causing me to make progress and make good progress. Its amazing.

I continue to receive great revelation from the Lord through Joseph Prince's teachings. What the Lord is showing me right now is, I am Righteous through Jesus Christ. Once you receive a true revelation of your righteousness in Jesus it will change you forever. And its awesome that i did not earn this righteousness at all, it was a gift, therefore, i just receive that righteousness as you would any gift. And i also continue to speak that truth out loud, in the midst of mistakes i continue to proclaim, I AM RIGHTEOUS BECAUSE OF JESUS! I do not want this to just be head knowledge, so i ask the Lord that this truth would get down deep into my spirit and that is what He is doing. There is more revelation i am receiving but this is good for now i think.

I went in to talk with my coach about why i was not playing, I went in friday morning after i knew i was not playing friday night. He told me a couple of things he thought were missing in my game, mistakes i have been making. Honestly i did not see what he was saying, the "mistakes" he said i have been making in practice i tried to think back over practices and i honestly cannot remember making one of those mistakes repeatedly. Yes i do make mistakes in practice, we all do, but i do not make them continuously. So i was pretty mad after i talked with him. I went out on the ice for a pregame skate and i heard the Lord saying; "the reason i told you why you were not playing is still the reason" (the night before i had asked the Lord why i was not playing in this game friday, he said:

" there is still some fear left in your, i want you to be completely rooted deeply in the truths i am giving you before you play, so that NOTHING can shake you"

i am not saying i will be perfect before i am allowed to play, but the Lord still wants to deeply root me in this specific truth He is giving me before i play)

So i was very thankful for the Lord speaking to me in the midst of my "report" from my coach.

This upcoming week we have practice mon-thursday and then a game friday. I am really looking forward to an awesome week of practice, flowing in the grace of God abundantly. After our game friday we also have a game tuesday.

I will update next weekend after our game friday!

Love ya all, thanks for reading.

2010-2011 Season

Hello all! This is the start of a brand new season for me. I am looking forward to it thoroughly. There has been a lot going on in the last 2 months, i am sorry i have not updated the old blog until now. I will attempt to give you a summary of the last two months.

I got to school at the end of August, this semester i am living in the "Hockey House" still, which i am enjoying. However, next semeseter i will be living with a very nice family from my church up here. Their names are Dennis and Carol Forehand. They have a big house and they have offered me a room in their house for pretty much nothing, which i am very thankful for. They live about six minutes from the rink, so it wont be a bad drive back and forth to campus. I will move into their house sometime before christmas so when i get back from christmas break my stuff will already be all moved into my new room. When my parents come up to visit they always stay with Dennis and Carol, they are very nice and open up their house to my folks all the time. Carol and Dennis have six kids, all are older and mostly married (except one). One of her boys (Nate) is a very good friend of mine up here, we spend a lof of time together.

The school year has been going well thus far, i am doing well in the majority of my classes. I am currently having a little trouble in my Anatomy and Phisiology class, i am doing well on my lab practicals, however, i am not doing well on my lecture tests. So i have one more left in the semester so i need to do well on it! ha. Other than that school has been good.

The hockey season started last weekend. We played two home games last weekend and two home games this weekend. We won two of the games and lost two, so we are 2-2 right now. Which is not a bad start. I really like all the incoming freshman and i really like the direction of the team much better this year. I feel as though the whole attitude of the team is much much better this year.

So A LOT has happened hockey wise over the last week and i will not be able to go into all the details. Basically, we have played those four games thus far, however, i have not dressed for a single game yet. Last weekend they put up the dress list for the game and i was not on it and i was extremely upset. However, later that night after work i needed to meet with my Father personally. I was so distraught and i needed Him and thankful we have a Father who hears us and comforts us. So after some very excellent encouragement from my mother, i set aside time to meet with the Lord. As i was spending time with the Lord, the Lord urged me to listen/watch a video podcast of Joseph Prince. I had downloaded the message a couple days earlier and i knew the Lord wanted me to watch it right then. So i did and it was amazing! It was such a delivering word, the title of the message was called "boast of Gods love for you, not your love for Him". It would take me to long to give you every detail of the sermon, but what i received from it was that its not right for me to boast of my love for the Lord, that does not bring me to a closeness with God. However, i have the opportunity to boast of the fact that He loves me so much and all that based upon Jesus, not based upon anything i can do. I cannot earn His love, just like i cannot loose His love. Its amazing and it is a freeing position to be in.

I recived that from the Lord last weekend and i did well not dressing in those two games, then this weekend i had an opportunity to go deeper in that truth by not playing again this weekend. I did pray with my pastor up here last month concerning the upcoming season. We agreed together and asked the Lord that this would be my best season thus far. My best season. So i am expecting that and even though i have not dressed in four games thus far i am looking forward to see how the Lord will cause this to be my best season!

We have a game tuesday this week and then one on friday. I will update agian after those two games! Hope you were encouraged and thanks for taking the time to read!