Thursday, February 24, 2011

Another ending... And a new beginning...

The season is now officially over.  It is a sad thing, to be done playing hockey in February but i am doing well with the whole situation.

When i last wrote we were going into our final week of practices.  We had 2 home games this past weekend and all last week we were preparing for them.  I was all set on enjoying the week and working hard that week to get ready for those games.  I got to practice monday and i saw something, something so small and it wasn't really a big deal, however, i let that thing bother me big time.  It affected my whole practice on monday and i did not enjoy that.  Quite honestly last week was a tough week for me.  I want to be clear that i am convinced that the devil has been rendered powerless, and that the Lord has made us (believers) to be more than conquerors over situations and the devil.  However, the devil still has a voice.  It says in 1 Peter 5:8,

        "Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour." 

And the devil was trying to speak last week and i made the mistake of listening.  I had a very rough couple of days, entertaining negative thoughts and even in the midst of reading my bible and feeding on truth, i was still listening to those negative thoughts.  I made the mistake of entertaining them for a minute.  The devil was crafty and some of those negative thoughts i was thinking sounded logical in a sense, they sounded like they could be true.  However, they did not line up with truth (the word) and thats where the light bulb should be going off.  So i had a rough couple days at practice and thursday night came around and coach put up the lineup for fridays game.  Again i was not on the list and again the thoughts kept pouring in.  Stronger than ever and i continued to entertain them.  The funny thing is, if someone just saw me and said hello they could possibly not know what was going on on the inside of me, unless they had discernment from the Lord.  This was an internal battle going on.  Later on in the evening i was able to talk with my parents, and they so wisely helped to open my eyes to what was going on.  How i was entertaining these lies from the devil and that was producing a thought of "the Lord is unfaithful"  - i might not of said that with my mouth, but i entertained the thought for even a second and that is not good.  After having my eyes opened i was so mad, mad at the devil and his deceitfulness, i was mad that he was trying to trick me like that, trying to get me to question the goodness of my God.

After going to the Lord and just spending time with Him thursday night and getting myself back into the truth, i was at peace and at rest in my spirit.  It was excellent.

My parents and Carol had planned to come up for the weekend and watch both games.  So they arrived friday and we went to the game and watched it together.  We lost that night to Geneseo.  The next day we met at the rink at 10 am to have a little meeting.  Coaches use this as a way to get guys up in the morning so you dont sleep all day, plus this is where he puts the lineup up for that nights game.  When i walked into the room i noticed that i was on the list to play that night!  I was excited for sure, i wasnt jumping for joy or anything like that.  But i was thankful to the Lord.

So basically including my parents and Carol, i had 13 people come to that game that night. ha.  I had my own little fan club.  We won that game and i was pleased with how i played.  I had a mixture of feelings after the game, i was so happy that we had won, however, i was also sad that that was the end of the season then.  So it was bitter sweet.  I remember walking out to my car after the game and i was just thankful to the Lord.  I was thankful that i had gotten to play that night, especially since it was the last game of the year and it was also senior night.  I played that game for the 3 seniors we had, i wanted to make sure we won that game and we could send them out on a win!  So i was just thrilled.

I still want to spend some time with the Lord and just speak with Him about this season and how everything went down.  I am asking the Lord why certain things happened the way they did and i also want to start asking the Lord about next season.  I might end up blogging later on about what i receive from the Lord or maybe i wont.  I will try though.

We have about 2 more weeks of school until i get to go home for 1 week for spring break.  I am looking forward to that.  Also after this week is over (this is my rest week this week)  i will start my training program for the spring.  Also this spring i plan to setup a net outside in my backyard and i want to shoot at least 500 pucks a day.  Maybe more, we will see how that goes.  I really think this will be wise and it will be a good use of my time as well.  I really want to work on my shot for next season and i think this is one way to do it.

I am receiving revelation from the Lord about work and how we do that under Grace and things of that nature, but i do not have the whole picture right now.  I will post about that later sometime when i have more.  Plus this entry is mega long already so i should cut it off now.

Thank you all for reading!  I'll post again later!

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